Blood, not blood tests, are Good for my Health

Well I got the results of my blood tests back, and there's nothing there to require changes to medications, but therefore no answer to how I've been feeling... However I found another, better, cure for my lugubrious sensibility...it's called...PAUL!!

Yes,...Paul is coming up for the long weekend and I couldn't be more excited...I've promised him I won't clean...but maybe I'll make Matt clean!!!!That works for me!! So he's bringing his several hundred movies with him (he's leaving his projector and theatre at home though!) and Matt is dying to get him out on the Paintball course!  Hope we don't kill him!  Jacquie's working so we won't see her this time...Their wedding anniversary is coming up soon too...1 year ago September 22nd.  Well, we'll see u later....Bye for now. Wish me FUN!!! 

The ressurection of the nearly dead!

Well I've been away for awhile....swimming in the darkness and dancing on the edge of death! I knew that I was slipping into the darkness, but thought that maybe it was just circumstantial. My eldest son Paul got married in Hilton Head Island South Carolina, a beautiful place with years of wonderful memories for all of us. I don't think that I had ever achieved spiritual and physical peace anywhere, other than there. Walking by the ocean, breathing in the sweet salty air, feeling the soft silky sand between my toes. Heaven....at least that would be my sense of heaven. The closer it got to September 22nd, the sadder I became because we couldn't go. At first it was just little outbursts of tears....sometimes sobbing uncontrollably. Then it became more difficult to go out, because I didn't want to draw attention to myself. Then I was crying more than breathing, it was more than missing the wedding...it was about missing life... I knew I needed to reach out to get help. I had had some bloodwork done and by this time the results had revealed that my TSH was 3 times higher than it should be, and my mood meds I had reduced after increasing them without permission ( I was getting a bit high) but had then reduced them again. This whole whack of medical issues. and medicines, which can cause side effects, and the multiple diagnoses that cause symptoms get very confusing, and very difficult to discern whats actually happening! Lots of fun...So I crashed with my fibro...I crashed with my bipolar, and it was a mess! BUT I"M BACK! Forgive my absence from the blog/cyber world!