Can U C Me?

This blog has grown out of a desire to do something...anything... consistently and I almost have, for one year, with a bit of a gap between the Iranian Protests and the Haitian Earthquake! I am 51, I have fibromyalgia which simply spells P A I N plus headaches, year long flu symptoms and exhaustion , also heart disease, thyroid problems and a sprinkling of depressive disorder! My youngest son is 13, has ADHD and more energy than any "energizer bunny" I've ever seen, pink or not! I don't go out much anymore...unless it's dark, I'm wearing a hat...and a big coat to cover the fact that I'm really in PJ's having only left my slippers behind! (actually sometimes I do wear my slippers...I live in a small village...Stacey London would go MAD!)

Anyway, I'm reaching out, by reaching in as it were! I write about my life (!) current family and anything that occurs to me. Hope you'll stay awhile and even if you only stay a minute Please ... Please leave a comment! I get so excited when I get a comment it just makes my day! Thanks .

Tuesday, May 24, 2016

Wow! I'm not DEAD,

It has been far too long since I posted to my blog for many reasons but mostly because I've been really ill including another heart attack; major depressive episodes with suicidal ideation; financial problems blah blah BLAH!!!! Lots of problems with medications and their side effects.
Basically struggling like so many other chronically ill people and retreating into the fetal position to make it through each day. Not much fun but I'm still're still here (that is if you're reading this : ) ) so life continues. I've got a lot of updating to do on this site as it seems there's a lot that's not working right now, but for now just a "Hey out there" and hopefully I can relearn how to work this blog!

Saturday, May 25, 2013

How 2 b consistently inconsistent!

Oh's been a year since I've written and so much has happened.  For starters....I'M HEALED !!!!>>>> Well no I'm not healed unfortunately, but I'm also not dead so that's good.  I've decided that it"s best to have NO expectations rather than setting the bar too high.  That way by default my day has been successful if I manage to get out of bed, or if I answer the phone and speak to another human being!  Not that my son and his friends aren't human, but my standards for vocabulary,clothing, food choices, and terms of endearment have suffered abit in the past 10 years. But it's Spring/Summer again and my butterflies will be back because my lilacs are blooming and I'll try to make this gorgeous sunshine fill me up and raise me up.  I have promised my sister that I will try to eat better and get somone in to do the things I cannot so without crashing.
I have also become obsessed with the Jodi Arias trial and I am floored by the recent mistrial and I wonder what was going on in that jury room who had signed up to declare the death penalty but then they didn't??!!
I foolishly looked at the crime scene photos of that poor young man and there's NO POSSIBLE WAY that she had mitigating factors to avoid death. NONE!!!! In her appeal for life she sounded as if she was applying to be on student council suggesting that Travis Alexander being stabbed 29 times, had his throat slit from ear to ear, dragged into the bathroom and pushed in the shower, and shot him in the head and left him there to rot while sending him phone messages.? But there's something going on with the jury foreman that I think will be examined and found to be lacking...perhaps criminal.

Friday, June 8, 2012

a little bit of Heaven....

A few days ago I ventured out of my house (something I don't do often) and settled myself in  the shade of my apple tree which is flanked by a 30 foot long by 14 foot high hedge of Lilac bushes in full bloom.  The air was heavy with scent and the sun was shining; the wind breezing; and the birds singing...a perfect day...couldn't get more perfect...ah but could it? When I was a youngster I used to study and catch butterflies, and spent many entire days cycling to a vacant lot by the railway on Chartwell Rd, accompanied by my best friend, a thermos of Roses lime cordial, and some peanut butter sandwiches.  There we stayed, running back and forth, our nets waving vigorously in hot pursuit of that illusive Tiger Swallowtail, or Fritillary.
Preamble over with... as I sat under my tree I noticed some slow rhythmic movements, and fluttering, above and upon the blossoms of the Lilac bushes, and although I thought it was a Tiger Swallowtail at first (which are common) I soon realized that it was a Giant Swallowtail, and not only one, but a dozen!!! Wow! I was blown away.  Giant's are very slow and graceful, spending allot of time on the plant, while opening and closing their wings very slowly, followed by occasional wafting from bloom to bloom and fluttering rather than flying between blossom's.  It was like an incredible ballet, and these beautiful creatures came back every day..all day...for 3 days!  Just when your getting ready to sell your soul for a quick and easy death, something comes along to show you that maybe there are things worth hanging around for.  After all my continued existence can't harm the butterflies right??...well....I did "collect 2" specimens but I couldn't help myself...I had to "capture" the moment...literally.   Hmmmm.
While looking foe a picture of this butterfly I came across this article from the Ottawa Citizen about the arrivak of this species in our area! Please read the link and view the pic so you'll know what your seeing in your garden and how truly cool that is...may be global warming has some perks.....ya think?
Oh by the way writers....what is the "strike through" option for? School me please.